__________`` imma a girl who cant get ting'x right ' would you still love mi for who i am?`` ____

✖Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Emily the Strange

I lie in my bed,
Images of you run in my head.

Tears rush down my cheeks,
Memories of you make me weak.

I can't help but to weep,
Therefore I cry myself asleep.

And when I awake,
I feel my heart break.

Still under the cover,
Knowing you're not here with me.

Holding back my tears,
Wishing you were here.

I thought you were the one for me,
But I guess it wasn't meant to be.

Getting ready for the pain to start,
Smiling to cover my broken heart.

Crying inside all day,
Wondering why would all this happen.

Still in my heart will be,
A special place for you and me.

Updated @ 10:56 AM

✖Sunday, December 13, 2009

Emily the Strange

Finally get to see my baby after 5 days!
Roar~ Stupid reservice... haii~
But anyway, am now successfully get a job again! whoohoo! xD
But next year than will start working.
Will be working as receptionist... xD
1st time working as that.. sure it'x gonna b difficult for me..
But the pay is gd... moreover I'll only be working on weekdays...
In that case i got more to spend with my baby... x3

While he was preparing, I was playing away with his guns..

Real gun? Nah~ It'x a toy gun! lol~
Amazing is that he go and customize it till it look like as if it'x a real gun... lol
He still got alot more but so far i only love his M16... lol'x...

After he's done preparing, we headed down to town area n have our dinner at shokudo..
It'x one of the best japanese restaurant I've been...
Love the foods over there~ weet!

Orange juice and green tea

Fish fillet with jap

tokyo-style clam chowder (Dont order this.. ==)

Ham & cheese omellet

menace beef with jap curry

quail egg with bacon and beef with vegs(Cant rmb the name..)

Lols... we order too much in the end cant finish all the foods, but it was so delicious~
Yum~ Actually wanna call for a dessert de... But both of us were totally bloated..
Shall order lesser food next time, so that can get dessert! woot!

After done with our dinner, we went for a walk ard~
And while walking, we shall this 2 funny guyx n one hot babe..
Check out their suit..

Lol'x!!! we keep wanting to walk infront n see how they look like de...
Baby and I were keep looking at them walking ard giving flyer or broucher away...
Must b super ambressing to wear like this walking around in town><
That's why they were wearng sunglasses to cover their face.. =x

Slowly we walked down to ps n catched a movie...
Storm warrior 2.. It was nice but for me too mani animation...
not as nice as the 1st episode...
If you concentrate watching it, actully you'll catch the meaning of the story..
Just that it's kinda complicated.. Lol'x...
After watching finish the show, we took a cab home.
1st time in my life, seeing a accident infront of me.
we were at the crossroad, Than by rite it was red light le but a motorbike just suddenly
dashed out and our side here was green light, so the car started to drive.
In the end, the car bang onto the motorbike and both the rider and pillon fly away!
It was totally scary... both of us and the driver were shocked!
o.o" Hope both the girl, which is the pillon and the rider is fine.
But baby told me that he'x leg most prob is break or fractured le... cox after that,
he start to slowly crawl to the girl, but the girl was sitting over there and wiping her legs.
After seeing that, I told baby plx dun get a bike..
At least if u gt a car, than (touch wood) gt into accident, there'll b covers to protect u,
whereas for bike, is fly n might die.
Scary~ *sigh
When he reached home, I was on the way home, I saw another accident again.
But this time, there's one dead body with the police tant covering it...
Horrible~ Even the car'x front and glass were toally dented and flat...

Feeling sad worried bout the girl.. Though I don't know her..
Please guys~ Don't speed anymore and drive carefully...
there's nothing more important than you yourself n your life...
If you lost your life, how are u gonna spent the rest of your life with your love ones?

Gonna sleep now~
Oyasumii~

Updated @ 1:15 PM

✖Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Emily the Strange

I make this solemn promise to you:

To be your lover when you need to be loved,
your doctor when you are ill,
your army when you go to war,
your umbrella when life rains down on you,
your rock when you get weary,
your shield when you need defense,
your spirit when you are drained,
your pillow when you need to rest,
your voice when no one can hear you,
your ear when no one will listen,
your comfort when you feel pain,
your hero when you are under duress,
your sunshine when darkness falls,
your answer when questions arise,
your inspiration to overcome obstacles,
your hand to hold when you are frightened,
your kiss that wakes you everyday,
and your "I love you" each and every night.

I am yours... all of me.

Baby,
21mths we've been together le... ^^
All I asked for is nothing but a favor,
"Stay With Me Forever"

Updated @ 12:05 PM

✖Friday, November 20, 2009

Emily the Strange

Been coughing non-stop since after Elaine's birthday...
Now my stomach is starting to hurt alot..

But thanks to my dearest baby wuii for loving and caring for me,
and my family who's been looking after me
am starting to recover abit by bit le.. ^^
Nowadays life's been same for me, resting, playing audition, checkin facebook
and finding jobs.
Yea~ now am jobless again~ sian...
But anyway next year I'm going back to study with Elaine.. ^^
After been working here and there, still think that study is the best.
At least you'll only be stress and bothered exams and homework.
But as for work, boss will be watching over your shoulders, workers will be using you,
have to look at customer's face and etc.
But there'x pros and cons in both.
Anyway, in singapore in order to survive, you'll need a cert.
Everywhere u go, people will always ask you for your cert as a prove.
For me, I only have my N level.
So wish to upgrade myself. As least in the future, I'll be able to get a better job and
higher pay.. ^^

This few days have been seeing my baby~
pass 2 days finally see him in his army uniform..
Lol~ It's cute in him na~~ xD
After we reach his house, he told me he was exhausted after coming back from camp.
So he went to bath and I went to surf my facebook~
When he finish bathing, he went to lie down on his bed playing his psp.
Than I switch off his com and went to join him and start to snuggle and cuddle him~ =3
Slowly we close our eyes and went into lala land~

(Joke of the day)
While I was asleep, I keep hear baby was mumberlin but I just ignore it...
Cox he often talks when he sleeps~
Than~ suddenly he shake me damn hardly!!!
Saying :"BABY BABY!!!"
Me:"Huh?"
Baby:"Ah moon ask you to buy beancurd for her.."
Me:"HUH?!?!"
Baby:"Heh Heh~~~~"

Than he went back to sleep.
I just couldn't stop giggling away after wat he's just said t me..
LOLOLOL!!!
When he woke up I told him bout what just happen than he started to laugh away at himself.
Keep asking me "got meh~ gt meh~~~" ==
Ahhhhhh~~~~~ Baby ah~ always talks in the sleeps~~ xD
Heh Heh~~ but that'x what I love in you~~! ^^
MUACKZ~
Now we're keep asking each other away who the hack is that ah moon~
Lol~

Updated @ 10:31 AM

✖Monday, November 16, 2009

Emily the Strange

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ELAINE CHENG!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ELAINE CHENG!!

Happy Birthday To You, Happy Birthday To You,
Happy Birthday To Elaine~
Happy Birthday To You~~~~~

Happy 19th Birthday!! ^^ Muack'x...
Times flies so fast~~ Now we've known each other for 7 yrs le...
Still remember last time in Yuhua Sec the 1st time we saw each other? xD
I was so lost cox 1st day in a new school than I don't who to talk to.
Than when we sat down in the class, you were sitting behind me.
The teacher asked us to introduce ourselves, after I've introduced myself,
than to your turn, I turn back and smile to you saying hi.. =)
recess time, I asked if I can join u and u say : " ke yi ar." ^^
that's how we started to know each other.
Than~ Slowly we starting to become more and more slack till even "tao xue" with meh meh..
LOL! seriously I'll never forget the day how we tao xue sia... lmao!
It never fail to make mi laugh... xD
Climbing the fans jux bcox don't want to get caught by the security guard or~
Miss Lee!!!(The angry fierce "MU LAO HU" female lion)
Hahahahaha!

The days we go to Kbox tgt, you, meh meh and me. haha...
Keep singing S.H.E songs. Oh! ger... Remember you always ban yan as who ma? ^^
Elaine:"selina" Jabbie a.k.a MehMeh .a.k.a Silver "Hebe" and Me "Ella" =.="
lol~

lmao... this was one of the pic we took before going into Kbox~ yeah~~
Huge difference of the last time us and now... xD

Than after we finished our secondary school, the 3 of us went to different ITE.
='( Haii... Than slowly we're not like last time that stick to each other anymore
as you and me have our own ting's to do.
But I'm really glad that till now, from my 13th bdae till now, you've never failed to celebrate with mi once.
Thanks so much my dearest babe.. <3

This was taken on~~~~16? or 17th birthday... lol'x...
That's where I introduced Lester, Sotong, Doggy. Sam, and Arthur to you.
Lol... That was so much fun~ xD

Oh! I remembered that time on your 17 or 18th birthday,
before meeting you, Sam, Sotong and me went to bought a birthday cake for you.
LOL! I cant forget the expression on your face~ xD
cox the design is 1 0 on the cake... =x Don't blame me~
It was Sam's idea... Lol'x... I remember that time we did took pic of that and
that day tgt de... But i cant find those pics anymore... =s
Oh well... *shrugs*

Slowly~~~~~~

Now we're both 19 le...

Both of us have changed alot~~~

Now it's your birthday again~~~

Let's see how we look like now~~~

LOL...! yap... that'x the naughty and cheeky us.. LMAO!

When we reach ph, I was kinda susprised when you introduced a girl to me

Don't know why my eyes look so drousy... =s

I didn't know there so many girls who's name is Ferlyn too... ^^
But she's so cute!!! xD
Hope you enjoyed your 19th birthday ^^

Special Message To My Beloved Elaine Cheng A.k.a Bimbo Cheng:

hey babe~
I'll never forget all the fun and memorable times we had throughout all this year..
You've taught me alot and whenever I'm down, you've never failed to be there for me.
I believe in the past you've heard other people talk thing's behind my back,
creating Anti-Ferlyn in friendster and what others have done to me.
But yet, you always stand up for me and stay by me side.
Thanks so much.
In this world, no one can ever replace you in my heart as my bestfriend. ^^
Even if i were to lose all my friends, I'll never want to lose you.
You're the only girl who knew me the best, can joke and plays around with and
always give me the advice that I needed.
There's nothing I can asked from u but you to stay happy, carefree, cheerful,
beautiful, and happy-go-lucky always...
LOVE YOU! MY BESTEST FRIEND ELAINE!! ^3^ muacks...

P.s: Suddenly after writing all this, feel like crying.. x.x
Don't cry after reading all this hor elaine!! =x
and to BEVAN TAN!!!!!!!!!!! Take good care of Elaine and hor~ don't you bully Elaine!
If not, I'll ask my cat to come bite u~ xD
My blessings to the both of you... =D

Updated @ 5:28 AM

✖Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Emily the Strange

Nowadays my emotions are swinging super badly.
At times I didn't want to show my feelings out it's because I didn't want
those who love and care for me to worry about me.
But deep down in me, I'm crying, bleeding and tearing apart.

Who will ever see the effort that I'm trying to do in my life?
Who will be there to pull me up when I fall down?
Who will even know about my existance or even care?

For the 1st time, I can feel the pain and cuts in my heart.
I wanted to cry it out, throw all my feelings out and
being like a crazy girl shout out all my feelings.
But the tears just won't come out. The pain just wouldn't come out.
My heart is tearing apart.
It's just seems that whatever I do, I can never be the girl in your heart.
I can never change myself to suit into our world.

Thinking back, sometimes I really feel that, is it a mistake that I appear in your life?
If I didn't, you wouldn't have to go through all this suffering and all this pain.
Neither you wouldn't have to cry so much over me.

I never say that we didn't had any good times at all.
But when I think about all my wrongdoings, maybe you're right.
I'm the one whose most of the time who always makes mistake that causes us to quarrel.
If only I learn how to keep to my words, remember every single words I've promised you, stop all my stupidity acts and not being so forgetful, all this wouldn't have happened.

There's so many things that I wanted to pour it out, but it just don't want to come out from
my heart. Neither there's any words that can express my feelings but only to bear with the pain.
At times I've just lost myself, going back to the girl who will lock herself in the room, not wanting to see anyone, don't wanna be touched by anyone,putting everything all aside and curl up in a corner and starting to cry.
You might say I'm like a retard being like this or I'm a crazy girl. But all this I can't control.
When I started to break down, neither I myself can control myself.
Let time heal the cuts that's in my heart.

I'm sorry.

Wish to be in your arms now. Hearing you say "Baby, I love You."

Updated @ 2:48 PM

✖Saturday, September 26, 2009

Emily the Strange

In my path, all I see is nothing but darkness.
Where's the ones who use to say they'll always stay by my side?
Where's the one who use to love me?
Where's the brightness I use to see in my life?
I'm all alone in this endless road.
I'm totally lose in confusion.
All I see is people in disguise, I do not know who are them.
what are them.

As I walked alone in this lonely path, I saw an angel,
Standing infront of me, he held my hand and said.
"Don't be afraid, as I'm here for you.
To guide you through your life. To be with you through your life.
If the world's going to forsake you, I'll be the last one to let go of you."
As he guide me through my life, than I realize that those who once in my life,
most of them were in disguise too.
He taught me so much that I can never learn by myself nor anyone can let me see.
He make me became stronger, learn to be myself.
With him aroud, I got nothing left to fear.
All I fear is only that he'll leave me one day.
But I believe that he won't. because I knew he loved me as much as I do.

In my life, you're all that matters.

In my eyes, you're the only truth I see.

When my hopes have shatttered, you're the only ones still there and care for me.

Till the end of time, you're the only one I need.

Baby, thanks for staying by my side though the road's so turf.

Till Death Do Us Part.

Updated @ 11:24 AM